I am a smoker, or I used to be one. I like to smoke even if I am aware of the side effects. I started smoking late , on my age of 19-20, actually I stared when I went to college. I still remember my first of many cigarettes. It was a piece of “Djarum Black” with taste like a chocolate bar. One light ,inhale…and then “puff”, it was…different, new and bad. Instantly the first block from a big domino game fall and next thing I know ,I am year 4 in college and I smoke a cheap pack of cigarettes per day. “Does that really makes me a smoker?”
YES. Why ? It’s simple. I believe that I experienced a hardcore smoker daily/life. When you wake up and you want so badly a smoke , then ,after you eat and definitely need a smoke with a glass of juice and ohh I forgot about parties , the problem why we start to smoke in the first place.
I believe that cigarettes are a necessary evil.When you are surrounded by problems and a couple of them seems to be the EXIT. Everything is fine until you realize that you are walking so close to the edge and is so annoying when you start to think “How the fuck can a cigarette manipulate me ?” and then you stop laughing when you see all the creepy ads from every pack of smoke and you say “damn , it could be me…” . It’s is no more a variable that you can simply change ,it slowly turns into something constant that reminds you , the game is still going and you are the looser.
“Do you still wanna smoke?” I know I did . In fact I smoked so much in my last days as an addict until my body said “no more dude” . I couldn’t finish my last smoke and I trow it away half burned. I know people who are trying to quit for years but they just come back to the old habits.I believe that if it’s really meant for you to quit , you will and if it’s not, what can I say…”Enjoy them.”
Budget for combating terrorism: $161.8 Billion
Average US deaths yearly: 68
USA Health and Human Services
Budget: $2.9 Billion
Average US deaths yearly: 450,000
Yes, America…”terrorism” is an extremely important issue. Americans don’t need treatment and cures for heart disease…what they need is “MORE” security and invasion of privacy.
Over 6,600 times more Americans die from Heart Disease than Terrorism, but that’s just nothing. There’s no need for medication and health research, but for more guns in schools and men in black with matrix sunglasses.
Thank you for defending the American nation by declaring war against the fictitious Al Qaeda.
“I’m just kidding America , you know that I love you .”
“How can you freely express yourself without being embarrassed? How can you let people know how you feel?”
Why is so hard to really have someone that can truly understand you and who can love you for what you are ?In my case everybody is telling me that I have to change , that I have to grow mature but I don’t want to give up to my inner child . This second personality of mine helped me a lot when I was in trouble. I always used to ask myself “If I been hurt , how soon is to soon to get hurt again ?”
“Laugh and the world laughs with you, Cry and you cry alone.”
I learned that is never to soon , you can not be ready for what will happen.What you can do is to buy a popcorn and wait for something to happen. This personality who likes to watch , this is the child who always smile who will never ask a question , he will just sit there and enjoy his popcorn.Most of the times we are trying so hard not to care but deep inside us we are wired to care.I think emotion are like paper planes , you build them from a insignificant paper and when you are ready to release them , they just don’t want to fly. I build so many paper planes and I will keep on building until someday one will fly.
There isn’t the perfect question or the perfect answer but there is the right time to put a question or the right time for an answer, or maybe it is time to ignore the possibility that there had been a question and you would be surprised to see how simple an answer could bee.
Sometimes we have the impression that life sounds a little more complicated than it usually is. Well…You are right, it is,it was, and definitely it will be again. We live the days of the “ignorant peace”. All that you see are zombies, aliens ,big conspirative ideas and with every second that pass you forget the true meaning of life.We are so deep in this “society” , the speed of this routine is increasing so fast and in the end you will be there regretting why you let yourself to be so manipulative.
…the game is on, with no referees and we just play hide and seek with the world. We play the same game that our ancestor played but it’s bigger and it will be much bigger until it will crash. (simple like that )
“EVERYTHING PUT TOGETHER FALLS APART.”
Meanwhile you can choose a hypothetical world ending 😀
Without a great goal in life , there is a danger that despite with all the pleasant diversion you might have enjoyed while alive , you will end up realizing that you lived a sad life.
In other words you will look back and see that you wasted your one chance at living.Instead of spending your life searching for some “genuinely” thing, you walked blindly ,distracted by the many bubbles of satisfaction. But even if you can identify your greatest goal in life , there is a slight way that you will not reach your goal.
Well,I can say that for this kind of problem are schools , universities, people that can help us to build a strategy , to arrange the goals in a hierarchy , so that you will be able to sacrifice your smaller goals in purpose to obtain the greatest ones.Think about a pyramid , to build the highest level you must sacrifice the bottom parts. Oh, it would be so much easy if everything were like on papers. But the cold wind of the reality always kicks your face . Even when you though that you finished your pyramid and you almost reached the highest level, there is always a brick that will break your entire construction.It is like something that I herd:
Probably the best answer that you will find it will be like “a good job and a nice house” but these are really just some of the things you want in life. I am asking you “What you really want from life?”. I am asking not for the goals you form as you go about your daily activities but for your grand goal in living. Probably many of you will have trouble naming this goal.It is very important to have such a goal in life. Why?!
Deep inside us , we know what we want minute by minute during our life but we never stopped to think about our greatest goal in life. Our culture , our society doesn’t encourage people to think about such goals. Indeed, our society provides us with an endless stream of distraction and satisfaction so that we don’t have to think about it. The saddest thing is that somehow we are aware of this prison and we continue choose to live in it. I just hope the storm that is coming will help us to find the lost key from our door.
It is time to say goodbye to 2012! A whole new year is coming, a year with a lot of new opportunities , new roads in life, and a bunch of new friends.Year 2012 I want to believe that it was the best year in my life, a year that had completely change me in a much better person . I dedicate 2013 to my career because from now on I am a grown man and with this power comes a lot responsibilities (thank you Spider Man for your wise words:P).I think deep inside me I want to remain always a child but I don’t want to be like a drop of water in a big ocean . In reality even the ocean is a multitude of drops.The point is that, depends on you if you want to be a single drop or a big ocean. Year 2012 was a unique year and it will always remain in my heart.
For now I wish you HAPPY NEW YEAR! May God gives you light on the path that you all choose to follow!